.....My life here in college has been entirely hectic for the past month. The last half of the spring semester is always stressful. This stress has been compounded for me by several factors: this is my first semester working and going to school full-time; this is my last semester at Colby, therefore classes are harder; I have had to search for a new college, and make provisions for moving to an entirely new town; my future roomie (one of my skittles) and I had our first sorta-fight ever; and all of this is probably why I'm fourteen posts behind the required number for my news writing class. My life seems to revolve around Arby's and baseball, and baseball and Arby's.
.....I go to the baseball games so I can survive my life at Arby's. I go back to Arby's so I can earn money and go back to the baseball games..
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.....Actually that's not entirely true. I go to the baseball games because my friends go and that's pretty much the only time I get to hang around them anymore. I go to Arby's so I can earn money and finish school here at Colby without making my parents go entirely broke. But in working at Arby's, I have met some interesting characters who do get caught in a spiral pretty similiar to the one I was almost in. They work at Arby's. They hate it. They get drunk whenever they can so they can forget the bad day they had working at Arby's. When they wake up sober, they have to go back to work at Arby's so they can afford to drink, so they can survive working at Arby's.
.....I never could understand alcoholism before. I never got how on earth someone could just throw their life away, without regret and without looking back. But now that I've seen it, I do understand. Sometimes when things get hard, its easy to get tunnel vision, and to never look any farther than tonight and tomorrow. When that's all you can see, it makes it harder than heck to do anything you don't wanna do. I'd like to give some of my Arby's buddies a boost, a loan, something to get them out of their tunnel and on with life. I have no idea what I would do, however, and in all honestly its really none of my business.
.....I know one thing, though. I never want to be them. I'm more determined than ever now to finish my education and get a decent job I enjoy.
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Yup. That's sort of how I felt working at VI, and even more how I felt working at the grocery store. Because I liked VI in many ways. But one longs for something bigger, somewhere one can use the mind :)
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